¡¡¡... To Me In The Future...!!!

Warning: this entry is exclusively about My Life, something that happened to me and that I think I should share, maybe your perspective will help me to understand things better, writing I vent and feel much better telling you a key moment of my story that I marked and that has left scars

18th February:

Hi, it's 4:40 am and you're scared, you're scared and you feel like your life can be defined in just two hours. I’d tell you not to worry but we suffer from anxiety and insomnia since always, the only thing I can do is to remind you how much you’ve changed and how strong you’re now. I’m sure that any answer you have, negative or positive, you’ll do your best to fulfill your dreams. It's funny how almost 5 years can be summed up in two hours.

Only you and I understand the magnitude of this day, tears, depression, ashes and scars. It’s been a long process, full of many things, we know who we’re now, and we can’t stop.

You have to sleep, even 3 hours, rest. Tomorrow I’ll help you talk, trust me. I’m the person who has always accompanied you in hard times and pressure. Tomorrow I will help you and our life will finally have a direction. 

Today I wrote to the squirrel, sometimes I would like to be able to tell him so many things, like I still love him, with a love of those beautiful ones that doesn’t get corrupted with time.

Just remember you're not alone, everything will be fine. You deserve the most beautiful things that can happen to you. When we were small and gave us insomnia we took all the toys off the shelf and put them back on. When we were anxious we listened to that singer who helped us to breathe.

Today we are going to sleep with a knotted heart, with fear and worry and we are going to wake up to fight one more time. We’re going to make it.

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