My first Christmas tree

Hi,

Finally my things arrived and I was able to recover my treasures, including my books.

Going back to the topic of the trip to the city where he grew up, we had scheduled this plan with several friends from my city and he was going to see his friends (who are also part of my social networks) so it seemed more than prudent to me. block their stories and their posts. It wasn't entirely easy because I keep remembering the hurtful things he said to me and it fills me with rage, but at least I'm not crying anymore, I know I have to keep working on: Not attributing a negative emotion to a situation that is already part of the last.

Every day I feel better, I know it hasn't been a long time but I feel that somehow I got rid of a lot of pressure and anxiety that I was carrying on, in fact I haven't had a crisis since I've been here. Leaving a relationship behind is never easy, even if you read and inform yourself about it, leaving someone is hard, but it is better to do things well and treat yourself with dignity (I learned that later, but I will apply it for the rest of my life). One of our pending plans was going to the city where he practically grew up. I decided to keep myself away from social networks this weekend because I don't want to feel sad, I am very committed to my mental health. Yesterday I tried to sleep again without pills, I woke up many times, and even I kept dreaming about him, but today I will try to sleep again without help, because no one can take away the peace I’ve  materialized during these months.

Before I finished blocking him from all social networks, I saw an image that he uploaded to Facebook in which he said something like: "when will be the day they tell me that I look cute drunk?" I know, it sounds like he is a very immature person (because he is), I was offended because I felt that he was criticizing the fact that I had worried so many times about him when he was drunk and at that moment I said to myself: He is not worth my time, nor my peace no longer deserves anything from me. And there I blocked that social network. He is such an ungrateful person and I honestly still think he has an alcohol problem.

Going back to the topic of the trip to the city where he grew up, he scheduled this plan friends from my city and he was going to see his friends (who are also part of my social networks) so it seemed more than prudent to me block their stories and their posts. It wasn't entirely easy because I keep recording the hurtful things he said to me and it fills me with rage, but at least I'm not crying anymore, I know I have to keep working on: Not attributing a negative emotion to a situation that is already part of the last.

I'm thinking of restarting my project (I left it on hold because I didn't feel motivated enough) but I'm thinking again about continuing and making a profit again.

The only thing I'm thinking about right now is achieving emotional and financial stability. I will take care of myself in my health and I will be close to the people I really love. In a few days I will have to face fear again, I hope to bring good news. On Wednesday I'll celebrate my first month of being single of the year that I promised to myself.

If you want to support me in any way, here's my new PayPal: cavc0424@gmail.com

Books: Una vida, muchas vidas- Gustavo Petro 146/340.

Emotional Wisdom- Walter Riso 70/148.

Next publication: December 24th or December 25th.

Postscript: I bought that tree and those decorations with the intention of putting it together with my ex-partner, it was going to be the first time I was going to put together Christmas outside my house. Never happened. I put together the tree alone one afternoon watching football. It was meant to be.

I hope that you are having days full of tranquility, my comment box is available to you if you want to talk about something. A hug from this tropical paradise called Colombia.