Hello everyone,
This week hasn't been emotionally easy at all, on Sunday my ex called me, he was lost at dru... and alcohol to tell me that he loved me and that he missed me, to forgive him for all the things he said to me that Monday, that I didn't imagine how much he was missing me in his life.
I was crying Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday, the anxiety and insomnia returned, we were talking on WhatsApp but I think my ex is a person who cannot express feelings because he thinks he is vulnerable, he apologized (not sincerely) and I told him I didn't forgave him (he doesn't deserve it), the only thing he wants right now is partying and alcohol, I want other things, for the first time in a long time I have dreams (I had lost hope many years ago) and even when I feel that person (my ex) was an impulse to change my life, I am not going to let myself be absorbed by the feelings of the past and by someone who is in a spiral of self-destruction.
On wednesday I met a person who seemed quite particular to me, his way of speaking is too polite and I noticed that he has a totally different perception about social interactions, we have been talking ever since (not romantically), according to a friend, he usually doesn't answer when he writes to him but we haven't stopped talking since the day we met, I find it fascinating to meet someone different and interesting.
I haven't read, meditated or exercise again, I barely wrote in my diary, unconsciously I gave myself this week to feel, because before I used to repress my emotions, how hard it is to find yourself.
It is a new year in which I will not have a partner, but even when it gives me some anxiety, I understand that I must work on myself and strengthen the relationship I have with myself.
I hope you have or have had a peaceful New Year, perfection does not exist and it does us good to value what we are experiencing, not cling to the past and give our best every day.
My comment box is always available to everyone.
A huge hug from this tropical paradise called Colombia.
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