Merry Christmas to all

 Hello,

This is a very quick Christmas greeting because in the afternoon we are going to have a family reunion, a year ago I was at my ex's family's house, I remember that that time I got a little anxious because they were burning fireworks, however, I had a nice memory with them because we opened presents. This year I will be with my family in the city where I grew up and I feel that I will be able to be calm.

Since I've been here I haven't had anxiety attacks, obviously I've had days when I've cried and it's something normal, we had a relationship of more than a year and 5 months, but just as I cry, I get up and continue with my life, for At least I have been able to be calm and I appreciate that very much (I think that therapy and medicine have helped me a lot). This week I was quite emotional and it's just that my period was coming so obviously I get much more sensitive than I am, but I was able to handle it with everything and its emotional trappings. I'm still in zero contact, I always keep what I promise, and I promise that I'm not going to look for him, especially after how he treated me the last time we talked about the relationship.

I keep reading about emotions and relationships because I feel like I never gave importance to those things in my life, and I think my parents thought that I came with that installed in my brain, so I'm learning because I want to be more aware of my life, my reality and my happiness.

It's been a long time since I spent Christmas at home, before I had a lot of conflicts about coming home, but I think I've finally reached the point where I want to be with my family even if it's dysfunctional. Luckily I have a family, it's not perfect, but it supports me and loves me.

I hope that everyone can have a nice Christmas, alone or with others, the most important thing is that you are well, that you have peace of mind. My comment box is available to everyone.

Merry Christmas and a hug from this tropical paradise called Colombia.

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