That would be my reality

 Hello,

I would like to be able to say that I already have a job and that I have economic and emotional stability, but no, it isn't like that, I'm simply going through a process and I'm doing the best I can.

This week I'll start my job search, I'm still not very sure in which city I'll live but the idea is to pass resumes, return to reality and save money. I want to have health insurance again because I need to have my physical and emotional health checked.

Regarding my ex, well, I spoke to him again after several calls that I had with him (in which he was mostly drunk), however, there was a Wednesday in which I asked him if he had eaten (He had been telling me that he had several health problems) and his response was a photo of a bottle of aguardiente (typical Colombian drink), at that moment I felt that I was no longer able to deal with the same thing, so I wrote to him that I hoped he had fun and that it was better that we talk to each other later because we were at different times in our lives and I blocked him (dealing with the worries of drinking in the middle of the week, having health problems, not eating and with responsibilities the next day, is no longer something that interest me and what I don't want to deal with). And well, during this week it hit me hard to return to zero contact but little by little I have been better.

I saw some photos of my friends (the ones we have in common) and they spend the same time drinking and at techno parties (this implies many more things), and the truth is that if I hadn't come out of that, probably that it would be my reality and my body no longer gives me so much voltage and I don't want to spend my vital energy in those scenarios either, now I am focused on other things in which I want to show myself that I am capable of achieving it and the tenacity that I have.

This week I went out with a friend of my cousin (who I've known since we were children) and with my best friend, in both scenarios I felt comfortable, obviously with my best friend we were talking about the past, the present and what we want for our future . It makes me happy to feel that I can be with people like me, who have not lived a linear life in which the average desires of society have been fulfilled. If I can tell you something, it is that I have experienced many things, but I have been happy because I have had enough freedom to make mistakes and learn from them, I have made the decisions I wanted and I have never felt that my wings had been clipped. I love my life and the person I have become (obviously there is a lot I need to work on, but I accept myself and highlight the important human being that I am).

I'm happy because a friend bought me a ticket for a Techno event :D (I have the best friends in the world).

- Una vida, muchas vidas- Gustavo Petro: 326/340.

- Aprendiendo a quererse a sí mismo- Walter Riso: 32/154.

If you want to support me in any way, here's my new PayPal: cavc0424@gmail.com

Remember that we should not compare our life with others, we have different processes and privileges, it isn't a race, you have to enjoy the journey. I hope everyone is doing well, that they find a reason to smile every day. My comment box is always available to everyone.

I give you a hug from this tropical paradise called Colombia.