Progress

Hello,

I must be completely honest, I wanted to write about a documentary I saw recently about mental health and draw some parallels with what I have experienced with my anxiety and depression, but I have not found the words, I feel a lot of responsibility when talking about these issues, because I ever felt so lost that what I want most is to be able to help others, so I want to choose the right words to convey the right message. I don't even know where to start, so I decided to tell you what I experienced these days while I finish writing that entry.

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Well, what can I tell you, time is doing its thing and every day I feel better, my ex's birthday is this month, the two years that passed we were together, I don't feel nostalgia or sadness, or anything like that, but I have in mind this month, I have analyzed the situation so much and I have worked so much on my self-esteem that not even wind blows my face (Colombian expression that means: I don't give a damn), that I wish to him a very happy birthday from a distance. We keep in contact zero.

I have continued to exercise, write in my journal, occasionally meditate, study from Monday to Friday, take my pills, the reduction in the concentration of the morning pill has not had any adverse effects (once another day I feel a little more anxious that is normal, but super manageable), now I'm doing the reduction of the sleeping pill, because I took that one from one moment to another and it gave me a rebound effect, I'm already going by 1/4 every night. Here we go, we go, getting stronger emotionally. I'm still pending with the appointment with the psychologist and the psychiatrist.

I haven't been able to read as I would like but between the study and the social networks about ecology I haven't programmed the space to be able to read comfortably. We are no longer going to the March event, we are going to an event in May (one of the largest in Colombia) where my favorite German DJ will perform.

Movie recommendation: All Quiet on the Western Front- Edward Berger.

That film is BRUTAL, it's an honest story of what a war is. It is historically situated in the First World War. And the soundtrack 10/10.

I'm going to see Tár- Todd Field soon. I have seen very good reviews about it. 

I'm going to start watching the third season of Mandalorian, and I'm missing the final chapter of The last of us, Yes, I love how Pedro Pascal acts.

As a final remark, I have finally managed to be silent with myself for a long time without it becoming a problem, without having my head in a knot, without being overwhelmed by negative thoughts, obviously I still have days of days (as we all have had), but I have been able to handle the situation in a better way. Every day I thank randomness for my parents, my pets and discovering that writing makes me feel so much better.

Books: Do androids dream of electric sheep?- Philip K. Dick- 72/285.

The power of the mirror- Louise Hay.

I hope you have a week of great tranquility and full of self-love. A hug from this tropical paradise called Colombia.