Small talks make you free

 Hello,

These days I have been doing a thousand things at the same time, I have not even had time to rest on weekends. I've tried to perform in all things, but to be honest, I don't have the time because I'm also taking myself as a priority, so I take my rest hours too.

It's almost three months since I came to this city and I must say that I love it, even when it's as chaotic as it is. It makes me want to live, I don't know how to explain it.

For me it is quite curious to notice how things have changed so much, I went from not wanting to do anything and not finding meaning in many things in my life to doing things for the simple pleasure of doing it, of feeling "useful". I went back to therapy after many months, I cried a little, my therapist always touches fragile parts of me, but after that appointment, I free myself, I feel better and I realize many things that were previously overlooked. Small talks make you free

In other news, my computer is getting progressively damaged, there are days when it connects to the internet, others when it simply shows an error and hardly opens the files. My cousin has been lending me her pc, while I can buy a new one (so many things have changed for the better, that before I didn't even care if I had a good computer or not).

Living with this side of my family (which is my fav family) I have been able to notice that I am a person who has very marked limits in terms of coexistence (it's a shame I didn't have them in terms of my emotional life xD, we're already on that) and I have clashed with some people in my family because at this point I hate disorder in common areas, gentlemen, what can I tell you? emphatically not for me. The point of this is that I am living with my cousin who is 20 years old and it is the first time that he is living "alone" (in quotes because my aunt lives upstairs).

I've already had some run-ins with him, but it's because he has inconvenient habits like leaving lights on, clothes and dishes all over the place, he doesn't help with the bathroom or cleaning in general, I really try to understand, and I visualize myself being 20, however, although I was never the most orderly person at that age, the common areas were definitely where I put my best effort, my room was a horrible mess, but I didn't try to bother the space of others.

On the other hand, I have been seeing that one of the people I live with is making decisions due to the fear of being alone, I am not saying that he is doing badly, in fact I feel that he is doing things that he would not have dared to do before. before and that's the point, that someone had to show up to feel the motivation to take risks. The years have taught me that you cannot start doing things because someone comes into your life, people are not forever, they change, the things you decide to start do for yourself, because unfortunately people tend to disappoint you.

I have to know how to invest my money during this time because I want to buy things that will make me feel much more comfortable in my house, we are going to see what results from this because the budget is not bad, but it is necessary to know how to save to be able to buy the things that I need. As a reaffirmation that I am now quite a lady, he told you that I already bought a stove :D

I send a hug from this tropical paradise called Colombia, to the people who read me in the United States, Germany, Russia, Spain, Switzerland and of course Colombia 💗 and to all the others who have come across this blog, I am very excited to see them from all the countries in the world where they read me. You are not alone, you have yourselves and that is what matters most.

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